Zanie Hernandez's Page

well, my name is Zanie Hernandez. i am 18 years old and am privilaged to be the daughter of pastors jesse and maria hernandez of Eloy arizona.
well, i was raised in the things of God. never forced, but was lead to the understanding that church doesnt save you- jesus does- and its all about Jesus! haha
my parents made it clear that we are never going to fit in and God made us crazy because he has a special plan for us. My mom brought out an illustraton that we were a piece of a puzzle that isnt ever going to fit into the worlds puzzle, but a puzzle peice that is going to fit in the puzzle of Gods will and purpose for us.
i never understood what she meant when she said things like ''your not mine, your the Lords, so wherever Gods leads you or takes you we're behind you and praying for you!''
Growing up i was the most obvious differnt kid of the bunch at school, church, and everywhere else i went. well me and my brothers. First- 5 grade teachers would say things like you smile to much, what did you do? and i would say things that my elderly sunday school teachers would tell us- its jesus in my heart! haha to me that was a fact it was my whole purpose of life and meaning.
in middle school of course i slowly began fading into the crowd, but thank God it just a faze for about a few months. i remember i said a bad word and i was like yeah i am soo cool, until i felt this huge rush of guilt and reminder- your not of this world... in your mothers womb i knew you... i was a kid about 10 and hadnt read much of my bible like i used to- and i hadnt read that scripture yet either- but i remember going to church and asking Jesus for forgivness, and started realizing that those bad words were lame, and being crazy as i was i began using my moms hip words like jellybeans, fudge, and ratz. Kids would laugh and i would laugh and soon began asking the lord to take those bad things away completely- in the fifth grade my light began to shine even brighter and i began telling people about Christ and these topnotch stories i was learning in sunday school and a testimony a sister hadsaid a church the night before! haha
i could make friends with anybody- and i forgave quicklly and just began praying for people. i was doing good! i remember preaching in my bedroom at the age of 7 and then use the broom as a guitar for worship service! My brother had an idea to start a rock band and write music when i was 12 that would influence the younger generation to accept God and to encourage them to know him in a deeper level that religion, but relationship.7 of us formed a band( a family band) and God began to use us-
when i became a freshman in high skool we got our first gig playing shows with a couple of local ministries and just saw God moving within our communities-everything was going so well! i was on fire for God and i was involved- preachers from all over would prophecy over me and would speak to me things that Lord was going to do through me and lives that were going to be lead to him through my ministry-
i fell, but the picked me up- i love how the word say a righteous man falls 7 times, but 7 times he get back up. I went through harodcore storms and disappiontments and wasnt following the right road the lord had laid before me which lead me to difficult times in my life.
iDuring this time all this was happening, my pastor, my best frend, my uncle, a father figure was diagnosed with cancer. He many times tried to warn me about being unevenly yoked and i needed to stop. I walked around with this guilt of letting him down. Well, doctors soon told him that he only had 6 months, but praise God gave him 6 more months- this gave him time to prepare his family, church, and finances-because he remained faithful to God, everything was paid for- so his wife needed not to worry about anything all was taken care of.
my uncle past away- WE were soo sure that God was going to deliver Him and that we had victory- Then i was angry, upset, at God, he took everything away-
...so i thought. but now i realize that we did have a victory! many!!! and i cant wait to see him again someday!!!
It has been a year since all this has happened, God has delivered me from all this guilt and saddness. He gave me a whole new meaning. It was hard getting back up. i was ashamed at who i was- i remember recommiting my life to God and asking the Lord to restore all and then some. to deliver me. And he did. What i thought was going to be bad God turned to good. Iremember during those nights of depression Abba would say things like, you hurt now, but this is going to help someone tomarrow. your pain is someones gain- your going to help so many young people. i cried feeling unworthy, but now, i see that God has helped me soo much in my life. A year now has passed when the biggest storm had came, and i just have to thank God because now i am stronger and more wiser than i was before. I grew up spiritully, and what i thought i had lost, God just gave more and then some. My band soon came back together, each and everyone of us has a new song and deep desire to reach people. God truly transformed me. I am now more on fire for him than i was before, i am truly changed, and just allowing God to use me as his instrument. My band is now in the process of wriitng new music, God has just been blessing us and refreshing his anointing over us. I am now a Youth leader. My parents are now Pastors of our Church, and are continuing the vision my former Pastor and leaders - our church is growing with more and more people seeking God and who are willing to serve for the kingdom of God. i am now i a worship leader as well. MAn! God has just been Amazing! haha Praise God!
Praise God. He helped me forgive myself, and to forgive others. God has just been soo great! like if he's ever changed! haha but i thank him for letting me see that he is the same yesturday, today, and forever!! haha
this is my testimony on how again God has saved me and picked me up. and i know many may be going through similar things or maybe even complete opposite- but just know that God will never change, He is always faithful and forgiving. if you havent already accept Christ in your life today do it And allow God to change and transform your life. Give your heart to him. Give your dreams, passions and desires. Jesus loves you and so do i! God bLess! Remember everything you go through you can bring glory to God! its never too late, repent, sekk God, and begin and continue to live a life for him! !
-Zanie